Sunday, March 27, 2011
Judge others
Yesterday I went to church with Helen. After playing with her at the playroom for a while, she starts to play by herself and I could go to listen to the pastor at the front. The guest speaker was just saying an example that when he had an argument with his wife and he was always right, but then he realize that we always see thing through out prospective, we should learn to see thing in God's prospective, and be unity. Then I remember a verse that I just read (listened), remove the log in your own eyes before judging others. I hope I can do the same...
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Twelve Apostles
I am so bad with names that I have to write them down!
The Twelven Apostles:
1) Simon, whom he named Peter
2) Andrew, his brother
3) James
4) John
5) Philip
6) Bartholomew
7) Matthew
8) Thomas
9) James the son of Alphaeus
10) Simon who was called the Zealot
11) Judas the son of James
12) Judas Iscariot, who became a traitor
The Twelven Apostles:
1) Simon, whom he named Peter
2) Andrew, his brother
3) James
4) John
5) Philip
6) Bartholomew
7) Matthew
8) Thomas
9) James the son of Alphaeus
10) Simon who was called the Zealot
11) Judas the son of James
12) Judas Iscariot, who became a traitor
Matthew 11:28-30
Matthew 11:28-30
"Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light."
"Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light."
Alpha Course
Time flies! Today is already the 2nd last day for my first Alpha course. Somehow, I am impressed by myself (or by God) that I found the material quite interesting and haven't skipped nor felt asleep at any class at all! My husband always asked me where I went on Tuesday night. I just told him that I went out for classes without telling him exactly what I was doing. He is always skeptical and mad about me not telling him the details. I actually have nothing to hide from him as I am not doing anything WRONG, but on the other hand, I don't want to disclose any details as I don't know what he would be thinking. Especially when I am not too sure about myself also. I want to be certain about myself first. If I don't have faith in God myself, telling him may discourage me to go on...
So today, during the class, the other team members shared their experiences during the retreat last weekend. I didn't attend the retreat as I had plan on that weekend already. Also, I don't really want to leave my daughter for whole 2 days. From the sharing, it seems to be a really worth trip, and I kind of regret that I didn't make it. All shared how GOD has made a difference to them during that trip. Someone mentioned that he prayed for GOD to remove the "fear and doubt" from him, and he did have that "fear and doubt" removed after the prayer. I told myself, I also got the same "fear and doubt" that I hope could be removed...
I have been trying to pray harder lately to get response from GOD. Either I didn't have enough faith or I didn't pay enough attention, I never felt his existence. Even the people in the Alpha group was super nice to me and prayed for me, I felt the warmness in my heart, but I was never certain that is from GOD. May be it's just from the warm hands of those kind people, I thought. I always not sure if it's because I am not ready, or GOD is not ready. When people are eager to ask me how I felt after the prayer, I wish I could say I felt GOD is with me, but I don't want to lie, I just don't know what I should be expecting or what would be a sign from GOD that would make me believe... May be at this generation, everything has to be proven before it is true. Faith seems to be diminishing... I have been listening to the "You've Got the Time" series to hear the whole New Testament in 40-days series. I guess it came at the perfect time when I haven't really read much of the bible before, except before the exam when I was in F.5. I was actually surprised by how little I remembered from my teenagers, most of the things seems quite new to me, yet quite interesting. I found people do get heal when they have faith.
Today, Sarah prayed for me at church that I would be able to see GOD. She is such a loving lady that I always found great comfort when she hugged me. Hugging is something I definitely lack in HK. I cried, I prayed, I tried to open my heart for GOD, but I don't know what to expect. She promised that she would pray for me this week.
After I went home, I saw a parcel from my best friend in Vancouver! On the parcel, I read "Chocolate". I was thinking that my silly friend spending so much money to send me a big box of chocolate! Then after I opened it, I found a book with a small pack of chocolate that she sent me. I was thinking, will she send me a Bible? or a Christian book? Then when I saw the big cover with a road and big suitcase, I thought it must be a travel book which may not be useful for me for the next little while with the travel restriction my husband imposed for our daughter. After a closer look, the title of the book is "Let It Go" not "Let Go". And at the back, some comments like "Have you been there? -'My guilt overwhelms me - it is a burden too heavy to bear... I am exhausted and completely crushed. My groans come from an anguished heart'", "Jesus Loves Me, This I Hope"... Then, I burst into tears, as it's exactly how I felt now. I felt that either my best friend knows me in heart or / and GOD finally heard me and respond to me! I have been feeling so guilty not being a good daughter to my beloved parents because of my husband, and not being a loving wife who would understanding my husband's feeling towards my parents. The fact that no matter how much I do, I couldn't please both side; and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't have a peaceful day with a big family gathering with my daughter, husband and parents, made me felt hopeless for a long time. That book, that sentences, that moment, I suddenly felt hope in life that someone out there (my best friend and GOD) are with me, understand me, and supporting me. I really thank GOD in sending me this angel to me, who stand by me all the time when I faced difficulties and sadness in life, even I annoyed her all the time. I praised the Lord!
Even I know the road will not be smooth, I would have to continue to walk, but I know I am not alone...
So today, during the class, the other team members shared their experiences during the retreat last weekend. I didn't attend the retreat as I had plan on that weekend already. Also, I don't really want to leave my daughter for whole 2 days. From the sharing, it seems to be a really worth trip, and I kind of regret that I didn't make it. All shared how GOD has made a difference to them during that trip. Someone mentioned that he prayed for GOD to remove the "fear and doubt" from him, and he did have that "fear and doubt" removed after the prayer. I told myself, I also got the same "fear and doubt" that I hope could be removed...
I have been trying to pray harder lately to get response from GOD. Either I didn't have enough faith or I didn't pay enough attention, I never felt his existence. Even the people in the Alpha group was super nice to me and prayed for me, I felt the warmness in my heart, but I was never certain that is from GOD. May be it's just from the warm hands of those kind people, I thought. I always not sure if it's because I am not ready, or GOD is not ready. When people are eager to ask me how I felt after the prayer, I wish I could say I felt GOD is with me, but I don't want to lie, I just don't know what I should be expecting or what would be a sign from GOD that would make me believe... May be at this generation, everything has to be proven before it is true. Faith seems to be diminishing... I have been listening to the "You've Got the Time" series to hear the whole New Testament in 40-days series. I guess it came at the perfect time when I haven't really read much of the bible before, except before the exam when I was in F.5. I was actually surprised by how little I remembered from my teenagers, most of the things seems quite new to me, yet quite interesting. I found people do get heal when they have faith.
Today, Sarah prayed for me at church that I would be able to see GOD. She is such a loving lady that I always found great comfort when she hugged me. Hugging is something I definitely lack in HK. I cried, I prayed, I tried to open my heart for GOD, but I don't know what to expect. She promised that she would pray for me this week.
After I went home, I saw a parcel from my best friend in Vancouver! On the parcel, I read "Chocolate". I was thinking that my silly friend spending so much money to send me a big box of chocolate! Then after I opened it, I found a book with a small pack of chocolate that she sent me. I was thinking, will she send me a Bible? or a Christian book? Then when I saw the big cover with a road and big suitcase, I thought it must be a travel book which may not be useful for me for the next little while with the travel restriction my husband imposed for our daughter. After a closer look, the title of the book is "Let It Go" not "Let Go". And at the back, some comments like "Have you been there? -'My guilt overwhelms me - it is a burden too heavy to bear... I am exhausted and completely crushed. My groans come from an anguished heart'", "Jesus Loves Me, This I Hope"... Then, I burst into tears, as it's exactly how I felt now. I felt that either my best friend knows me in heart or / and GOD finally heard me and respond to me! I have been feeling so guilty not being a good daughter to my beloved parents because of my husband, and not being a loving wife who would understanding my husband's feeling towards my parents. The fact that no matter how much I do, I couldn't please both side; and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't have a peaceful day with a big family gathering with my daughter, husband and parents, made me felt hopeless for a long time. That book, that sentences, that moment, I suddenly felt hope in life that someone out there (my best friend and GOD) are with me, understand me, and supporting me. I really thank GOD in sending me this angel to me, who stand by me all the time when I faced difficulties and sadness in life, even I annoyed her all the time. I praised the Lord!
Even I know the road will not be smooth, I would have to continue to walk, but I know I am not alone...
Sunday, March 13, 2011
1st Day of the You've Got The Time
I heard part of the Matthew today when I was sitting at the car while Helen was sleeping.
One versus I remember well is Matthew 6:34 "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
I do have alot of worry in life. But I guess one can only handle a certain of worry in a day. If more than day, it would be unhealthy. The other can only be left in GOD's hand.
One versus I remember well is Matthew 6:34 "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
I do have alot of worry in life. But I guess one can only handle a certain of worry in a day. If more than day, it would be unhealthy. The other can only be left in GOD's hand.
My first blog
I don't consider myself a Christian. I donno when I have enough faith to be a Christian yet. I just want to start a blog to capture my thoughts... I still have lots of doubts, questions about the bible.
I finally start reading / listening bible since I was in high school. I downloaded the "You've Got The Time" CD from the Vine Church, where I can listen to the whole New Testament for 28 minutes a day for 40 days in total.
Hope that after these 40 days, I would have better understanding of the Bible and answer some questions and doubts I have in my mind.
I finally start reading / listening bible since I was in high school. I downloaded the "You've Got The Time" CD from the Vine Church, where I can listen to the whole New Testament for 28 minutes a day for 40 days in total.
Hope that after these 40 days, I would have better understanding of the Bible and answer some questions and doubts I have in my mind.
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